Title: Pursuer of Life

Gender: Female

Age: 33

Sun Sign: Leo

Chinese Sign: Wood Rabbit

Location: Toronto

A yogi, a trader, a free spirit, a voracious reader, a lover of words, an involuntary student of culture, a dancer and a sensual being….

I thought my life and experience is very different from other people ( are we all under this illusion?) My situation had, in certain ways, more freedom than that of most people, and in certain other ways, much less. I thought, not all women are searching for a new pattern of living , or want a contemplative corner of their own. Many women are content with their lives as they are . They manage amazingly well, it seem to me, looking at their lives from the outside. With envy and admiration , I observed the porcelain perfection of their smoothly ticking days. Perhaps, they had no problems, or had found the answers long ago. But as you go through life and encounter different women, young and old, with different lives and experiences—those who supported themselves, those who wished careers, those who were hardworking housewives and mothers, and those with more ease—I found out that my point of view was not unique. In varying settings and under different forms, I discovered that many women, and men, too, were grappling with essentially the same questions as I, and were hungry to discuss and argue and hammer out possible answers.

The shape of our lives are, of course, determined by many other things; our background and childhood, our mind and our education, our conscience and its pressures, our hearts and their desires. We want to give and take from our children and husband, to share with friends and community, to carry out our obligations to man and to the world, as a woman, as a citizen.

But I want most of all, as an end to these other desires—to be at peace with myself. I want a singleness of eye, a purity of intention, a central core to my life that will enable me to carry out these obligations and activities as well as I can. I want to live in grace as much of the time possible. By grace I mean an inner harmony, essentially spiritual, which can be translated into outward harmony. I would like to achieve a state of inner spiritual grace from which I could function and give as I was meant to in the eye of God.

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